It’s amazing how one’s overall opinion of humanity and its progress (or lack thereof) can change dramatically in one day, and then change dramatically again…and all because of a few hours of sleep missed or a few hours overslept.
My sleep cycles have lately been very erratic because I have had varying amounts of homework this past month. It can go anywhere from 1 assignment for the night to the Stress Overload Package (tests/assignments/essays/blah all in one even though the teachers are supposed to schedule things in consideration of other class work!).
At this point in my life, yes, I am perfectly aware that my lifestyle is not the best for my youthful age. Anyway…
Let us subtract 4 hours from a typically 7-hour sleep cycle.
It is difficult to see humanity in a good light when one is irritable, extremely sleep-deprived, overloaded with work, exhausted, and sick with a head cold. It is especially difficult when everyone seems to be existing simply to torture you with their biting sarcasm. They all seem to want to block you when you are on your way to class; it seems a significant part of humanity wants to congregate at extremely inconvenient spots where you want to walk through but because these congregations occur you cannot. If only you could just push through them…or even mow them down somehow.
You come home, a pile of work ahead of you so gargantuan you might be able to build a small hill with it. And what is it all for? You slap yourself; you must keep going because what you do (or don’t do!) will affect you come fall when you begin your quest for uni. Damn teachers! What do they take you for? Mindless drones of IB students who will do homework at whatever cost?
And then you watch the headlines, watch about how such and such group wants to fight the other because they look different or speak differently or have something they want. And then that very night in your IB History book you read of mass killings, of millions executed, tortured, driven out; blown up, enslaved by work, enslaved by despair. The numbers are so long, so massive, you can’t even begin to comprehend the amount of grief each death has caused.
“Damn, we’re cruel to each other.”
Damn, what a miserably lazy lot we are, we IB diploma candidates.
Damn, what a miserable race we are, we humans.
Let us assume it is a normal 8-hour sleep cycle.
Oh, how nice! She held open the door for me.
Look at those silly pre-IBers, always panicking about their tests. If they only knew how amusing they are to watch.
And that old man! It seems he needs my assistance. Let me help you carry these things. Oh thanks, I’ll smile back as well.
Oh, for a laugh. You’re a witty lot.
I almost sound bi-polar…
But I am not.
Note that the nice day is notably short. There’s usually not much for me to say when everything is going dandy and well.