Excuse me if I didn’t post for the last two to three weeks. I’m not dead; I did not lost internet access; I am not held in custody by the powers that be. There was simply nothing to post until today because my student life has not changed much in those few weeks. Until now, of course.
Here I was, happily living away my hours because I honestly have not had that much homework (relative to my own perspective) in these past few weeks; nothing too big or daunting a test, essay, or assignment; nothing too frightening or absolutely terrifying that I would *seriously* (ha, me, serious) consider running away and assuming a new identity in order to escape from the perils of IB! Until now.
There are a number of things looming over my head waiting to crash and tumble down on ma tete and crush my head to pieces. EE topic due, math portfolio, commentaries, TOK exam, CAS, first IB history paper, recital, applications to various summer programmes (yes, this early), registrations, among other things that worry me. Children, these things are called stressors. In Psychology, such stressors are said to contribute to/initiate one’s anxiety problems and depressive episodes. But that’s besides the point.
There is no such thing as a “break” in IB. On the days we are granted off to “rest,” we are assigned loads of homework to complete. Teachers have managed to delude themselves into thinking that our lives revolve primarily around academics (which may be true, but still) and that we leave little time for “other” insignificant things (sleep, anyone?). This is a sign that I must now accept the fact that I will have to get rid of “rest” and “serenity” from my vocabulary (and any other words associated with “break” of the resting kind).
I think I will probably stop freaking out and stressing out….eventually, and will most likely get everything I need to get done over with in due time.
And yes, I’m a little bit anxious and depressed right now.
Note: For all you know, I could actually be one of the best students in the IB Programme at my school and am actually just pretending to be bad at time management and keeping track of big projects.
